I don’t even know where to start! The Fellowship was an amazing experience that I wouldn’t trade for anything. Looking back to my decision to commit to it, I just remember, at the time, a lot of things going wrong in my life, but where I stand today, I am so happy and appreciative for that. Every day, the Fellowship challenged me to grow in ways I never thought I would. I honestly didn’t know much about the program or what to expect. Not knowing is something that typically fills me with a lot of anxiety, since I like to be in control, but for the first time I can remember, arriving in Germany with no expectations wasn’t stress-inducing. I felt so calm and excited for the month ahead of me, and it truly was the best month of my life.
I was poured into on the Fellowship in so many different ways by my peers, the instructors, and the spiritual directors. I was able to be open and honest and authentically myself with everyone, and I was met with love and kindness. I was supported and encouraged in my faith and my relationship with Christ, not only in the classroom or by the spiritual directors, but also by every other Fellow, whether it was a late night conversation with my roommate, a group discussion over lunch, or a walk through Xanten with my new friends.
I made friendships during this experience that will last a lifetime. I cannot imagine the person I would be going into my senior year of college without this experience. I am more secure in myself, my relationship with and identity in Christ, and, by extension, my relationships with other people. By the end of the Fellowship, I was a wreck. I cried the day we all left, mourning the most incredible month I had ever experienced with the most incredible people I had ever met. I asked myself, “What do I do now?” And for (probably) the first time, my first answer was to turn to Christ. However, my second answer for myself was to reach out to the friends I made on Fellowship. I am forever grateful for this remarkable experience that has made me, at the heart of it all, a happier and more loving daughter of Christ.